hmm

As I sit here, looking at a pile of clothes that I've procrastinated on hanging up or folding, I realized something. I haven't posted any updated blogs lately because I really haven't been able to wrap my head around a clear thought of what I wanted to write these days. There's a lot going on. Still trying to find a job, secured a lawyer, made another trip to get some stuff out of storage and spent some much-needed time with my favorite person. There's a lot of things I still need to get and a lot of things I still need to do. I'm trying to take things one day at a time and take care of myself and let myself deal with all of the emotions I have. Some of the dreams I have, I could definitely do without. Some of them, I want to make a reality ;-) Ive been considering a few different home business options, but I'm really not sure I want to go that route because it will require some investment and with the lawyer aspect of things, that may not be the best decision right now. I'll figure it out though. I always do, somehow. I'm trying to figure out when to plan to go back up to get more stuff from storage and spend some more time with my favorite person, not sure when that will be. And although I am not looking forward to turning 40 in a couple weeks, I am looking forward to a day of adventures with my best friend. We shall see what happens. I'm thinking about how I want to go about the next few blogs and if I want it to be a place where I really lay out some things or if I just want it to be updates from now on. Maybe even the start of my own book? Hmm....stay tuned.

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